July 2009
32 posts
Bruno
Hm So I saw Bruno last night, which by the way is incredible, but I’ve read some responses from some movie goers and a lot of them were horrified by the content of the movie. I admit there were some parts that were bizarre such as the fifteen seconds of penis bizarrely flopping around and screaming Bruno! There was also the in dept intro showcasing Bruno’s homosexual lifestyle(parts...
THUNDERZ
Wow this weather is crazy as fuck. Seriously thunder and rain in July? Such a teaser. Come on, its July, it should be sunny, warm, and the sky should present itself in its azure glory. Not some obtuse reflection of its own self. I’ll give in to the fact that thunder is fascinating, but come one. Its not like some mind blowing experience. Give me some lightning and maybe I will be entertained...
Take a bow
Well that melancholic phase is still trucking. Its funny, I felt the same way when I woke up yesterday but as the day went along I got better. Maybe it is this weather that is getting to me? It is too gloomy and definitely not hitting me on the right chord. It doesn’t really help either when I’m plagued with these omniscient dreams. These dreams are getting a little bit to real for me....
“Employ your time in improving yourself by other men’s writings, so that...”
– Socrates
Yellow
I don’t know whats up with me today. I don’t if its Ray Charles “I can’t stop loving you”, or this cloudy weather, but I am feeling really melancholic today. Like I have no real drive for anything right now. I feel kind of sick actually. Like I feel this impending doom looming upon me. I feel disgusted to think that certain things are hard to purge from my mind. I...
Apollo and Dionysus
Greek Mythology spoke of chaos giving birth to gaea. The fruit full mother of gods, monsters, and in a way humans. It is in this, that chaos; a bleak, destructive, dark force created something that has sprouted order. A being that is composed of character and a justification in its action. Mother Gaea was the fruit full mother and host of the titans, the hundred handed men, the cyclops, Echidna,...
“You cannot dream yourself into a character; you must hammer and forge yourself...”
– James A. Froude
Radical dreams
For the first time in a long time, I actually had a dream in which I woke up shaken and frightened. In my dream I entered an elevator which had three other people in it. One was a forty year old something looking man in a business suit, the other was a elderly woman, and the last person was some unkempt looking guy with a white t-shirt, long black hair, cargo shorts, and some god awful...
A celestial call from beyond?
Lately I’ve been having some odd and interesting dreams. Some were just flat out insane while others were surreal… and somewhat disturbing. In my psychology class, I made dreams my centerpiece of study because dreams have always been an elusive thing for me. What do they mean? Do they stem from our waking selves? I’m fathomed by what has been occurring and somewhat dimwitted....
“We are more often treacherous through weakness than through calculation.”
– Francois De La Rochefoucauld
I'll face myself.
Well that was definitely an interesting experience. Just now, A police officer I became acquainted with in my past stopped by. It came completely out of nowhere. I was in shock really because for some reason I thought I was to be arrested. In reality though.. he came by to lecture me. He came by to lecture me about my past mistakes and where my life is taking me at this moment. It was a surreal...
“Music is the movement of sound to reach the soul for the education of its...”
– Plato
Cried
Its funny, I’m listening to a Celtic Inspired Video Game album by a Yasunori Mitsuda. Its actually pleasant, but I’ve always been a fan of Mr. Mitsuada anyways. His work on the Xenogears & Chrono Cross albums were quite phenomonal. To be able to create so much from so many different genres was quite a task. For example, on Chrono Cross’s track, “Prisoners of...
One foot on the gas, one foot in the grave
So I guess, this all relates to the fact that I am no longer able to fully understand it all. Its in the air I breath in, and its also in the water, its something my mother has warned me of. I can barely breath right now and I am wondering why I even bother. They gave us seven days to renounce our wicked ways; to make amends. So for the rising and the do nothings, what will you do when they come...
I mean seriously.
This is too much. I hate drama and I hate being a part of it. Was it something I did monday night? Was I too over dramatic or something? Why wont she just give me a solid answer! Im not going to run circles, if she wont do it then I have no choice.
“Ah, women. They make the highs higher and the lows more frequent.”
– Friedrich Nietzsche
“The fish trap exists because of the fish. Once you’ve gotten the fish you...”
– Chang Tzu
“Before enlightenment - chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment - chop wood,...”
– Zen Buddhist Proverb
Eating me away.
I cant stand this. I need to know. If this is over, I need to know now. I cant just sit around and wait for this.
Komm, Susser Tod
Its time for me to respect the ones I love. I wish I can turn back time because now, the guilt is all mine. I cant forget love and pride, and because of that its been killing me inside. It all returns to nothing and it all comes tumbling down…tumbling down. I kept on letting me down, but in my heart of hearts, I know I can continue, I haven’t lost everything. Everything that matters to...
“A good writer possesses not only his own spirit but also the spirit of his...”
– Friedrich Nietzsche
One Winged.
I remember something a while back that made me think. It was the idea of two angels with one wing each, each is disabled because you can’t fly with just one wing but when they are together, when they are working together, can they truly take flight. A silly thought isn’t it? I guess that is how all thoughts come out at first, silly but solid. I look outside right now and the sun is...
I need to practice self control
More of practicing my self loathingness or my guilt. It always leads to anger and then I feel even more crappy because I let myself spiral into that. Whats worse is that I feel this impending doom encroaching upon me. I rather have it be spilled on me now because honestly, this is scaring me. I need an answer and I can’t stand this waiting. I am an incredibly impatiant person.
